This was Vivian, trapped in the body of a boy. This is her story. #uncut. A confrontational and poetic music theatre performance about identity, memory, and transition.

for performers and concert programmers
‘In the touching production #uncut Renske Vrolijk lets her inner struggle echo in music.’
– (★★★★★ – De Volkskrant)
About the performance
The confrontational and poetic performance #uncut tells the story of Vivian, a trans woman, or just… a woman. Who gets to decide? She looks back on a transition that was not only brave but also raises new questions. After a long process of psychological evaluation and medical procedures, she is now who she wanted to be. Or is she? The question “You must be happy now, right?” is one she hears all too often, but is it true? What is she to do with her past and the old photographs? Who was she then, and who is she now?
Three Voices, One Soul
The performance follows the inner struggle of the adult Vivian, who tries to ignore her past and transition. Her personality is split into three conflicting alter egos: the dreaming child who wants to keep her soprano voice, the rebellious teenager struggling with her voice breaking, and her adult self. As the choir acts as her inner demons, asking probing questions, Vivian is confronted with the heartbreaking loss of her voice and the memories she tried to forget.
For performers
Instruments:
SATB, S, M, T,
bn, db, h-org, perc,
ssax, asax,
tsax, barsax
Duration:
87′
Year:
2020
Premiere:
24 May 2022
O. Festival
De Doelen
Rotterdam
Category:
opera/
music theatre
Language:
English
Lyricist:
Wendela de Vos
Are you interested in performing this work? Please contact my publisher.
Renske’s sheet music
is published by Deuss Music.
I am like any other & Please God, Not This
Scenes 4 and 5
Vivian is in denial of being different. Although she is functioning normally, the people around her are starting to ask questions about her background. “Psst Vivian, say something!”
Dreaming of later on & Voice Breaking
Scenes 9 and 10
The child Vivian dreams about a future in which everything will be right. When she wakes up tomorrow her hopes are that ‘she will be who she is’, and that she will always be able to sing. The cynical adolescent Vivian knows that this dream will be nothing but a nightmare, while the adult Vivian has lost her voice. She only sings with her ‘internal’ voice, for the rest she is unable to sing. We listen back with her to the moment of her voice breaking.
This Storm is not approaching from over the Sea
Scène 21
Vivian is in a hospital bed, dazed by tranquillisers. She is waiting for her Big Operation. The choir sings about her calmness, that is anything but calmness.
Nederlands Kamerkoor
BL!NDMAN [sax] saxophone quartet
ORBI – The Oscillating Revenge of the Background Instruments
Krista Audere
dirigent
Eline Welle
mezzo-soprano
Vivian adult
William Knight
tenor
Vivian adolescent
Syl Bech
Amélie Knape
Irene Kortlever
cild soprano
Vivian kind*
*wisselende bezetting, uit solistenklas Nationale Koren
Renske Vrolijk
idea and composition
Annechien Koerselman
concept
Wendela de Vos
libretto
SMITH
Lise Bruyneel
visuals
Tido Visser
staging/direction
Recording live performance at Muziekgebouw Amsterdam on 25 May 2022